Things that can happen in a car.

Me: Hey what's that constant beeping sound, it's coming from the back of the car ...

Mum: Maybe your sis is pressing some kinda button

Me: *checks* No ... she's sound asleep. Argh! Where's the beeping sound coming from?! It's getting louder!!

Mum: Just check around the car or something ...

Me:It's still getting louder ...

[...you know your car needs repairing when ... *beeping abruptly stops*]

Me: omgsh, you serious?! It was the radio ....

Mum: HAHA ... radio technology these days ... or maybe it's because you transferred half the sound to the back


sigh ....

Making friends

Started off being invited to a friend's youth night, me thinking about, and deciding not to go on the basis that I didn't really know people there all that well (except a select few) and that I always feel out of the "circle" (not that it really concerns me) each time I randomly go ... probably cuz I'm not much of a conversationalist and just usually talk to those who I know or approach me otherwise, I always just stand around and observe ... and laugh, lol. Either way, in response to my decision/statement, I get a "Well, have you ever tried talking/getting to know the others better?"

That question/statement made me think about the whole concept of "making friends" quite a bit. And honestly, after all that, I think I kind of concluded that no, I don't really make friends o_o; and in relation to that statement, no, I haven't really tried talking more to/getting to know the others better. I've found (I think) that most of my friends that I have right now are the ones that started "the" conversation with me and then I started talking and then friendships develop from there and whatnot. What's more is that I don't think I've ever done (or majorly attempted) that myself. Except for one person, which I (unkindly) ditched shortly after saying hi during first day at school (LOL, soz if you ever read this =P) and then somehow something happened (probably she started talking to me) and then we became friends (and yes, this is the sole case I remember cuz it left a very big impression in the fact that I felt super bad for ditching her). Other than that, mentally going through my list of few friends =P I've found that most are the ones that've talked to me at the beginning and not me talking to them ...

... which is kinda sad >_>; ...

This also makes me think of the whole "catching up" with friends-I-have-not-seen-in-however-long and generally talking with friends I regularly see. Earlier in the week, I met up with a friend whom I hadn't seen for a quite a couple of months ... since March actually. Kinda awkward at first (no offense) but then after initial "Hi's" and "Haven't seen you in so long!" conversation lapsed to the usual "How's uni/life/family/general interests or hobbies going" conversation. Obviously, talk like that can only last so long. Insert periodic awkwardness. Eventually, time lapsed by and we both had to head back to uni/classes. And so that was the end of our chummy time...

It really annoys me that I can't get stereotypical conversations out of my system. Each time I do it, I mentally kick myself but you know, I think "at least it's conversation, better than silence or something." Sometimes I feel like I need a "friend manual" or "how to make conversation manual" ... ok, that sounds fully dodge. Point is, I don't seem to be able or have the skill to make "decent" conversation ... sigh.

So this point makes me think about the friends I regularly encounter/talk to. Even them, conversation doesn't change much except for a few varying factors. Some I have more things to talk to/about, some less so/normal/boring talk. Also, the more that I think about it, it's usually them asking some questions and me answering, throwing back a few questions periodically. Or there's the "telling stories" times (ie. funny/weird/random stuff that's happened in the day/lately) and whatnot ... then again, I guess that's general/usual conversation with friends.

... ok, I don't know what exact point I'm trying to make anymore. Probably just simply, I fail at making friends? lol ...

... makes me understand how people get their first impressions of me. Most popular ones being: mean, cold, unfriendly, too serious, blank, up-myself outlook.

Should change that ...

Human Behaviour.

Go into a shop, try on things, don't like it, leave things lying around/throw back randomly on shelves, expect that someone will clean up after you/will put things back to its orderly look.

The older of the younger generation appear to be more well mannered than the younger. In this case (my observations), Japanese girls in their early 20s are more polite, well mannered and represent their culture more so than the younger Japanese girls.

Calling up to abuse someone of the whereabouts of their goods because they have not bothered to search for it. Upon finding the goods where they are supposed to be (and probably feeling embarrassed about it), have no courtesy to call back and inform the other party about the fortunate turn of events. Meanwhile, others are stressing away to ensure that the (previously) unfortunate situation is amended asap.

Being inconsiderate on the bus. We all need to get home, you should at least cooperate with everyone and move as far into the bus as possible so people can get on the bus and get home and not need to wait for however much longer for the next bus which could potentially be full as well. Sigh.

Being kind on the bus. Something I admire. Like, seeing the aged/mature/handicapped and taking the initiative and get up and offer them a seat. Like, being aware of (certain) situations around the bus and offer input (taking the correct bus, getting to a certain place). Like, stopping the bus (drivers) when you see someone running for the bus and not just take off.

General kindness and concern for others. For other friends. Doing things at the right time. Thank you.

Two Months

Two months

... of my thoughts and things to share. This is how my attempt started in MS Word a bit over a month ago...

Time for some serious blogging ...
... because someone told me to do so a couple of weeks ago and I suddenly felt compelled to take action now (finally?) at 1am on a Sunday morning just cuz I'm not tired enough to sleep yet. Somehow I predict that this’ll take a couple of days to finish ...
For the past several months, life has been particularly challenging, eventful(?) and deep thought inducing. On too many occasions have certain things/situations been thrown at me, relationships with some people going haywire/not to my liking, too many things happening around me that shouldn’t affect me have been indirectly affecting me, constant questioning and self reflection on my walk with Christ, getting annoyed at myself for my own behaviour, getting annoyed at others for their behaviour (which I really shouldn’t)... and the list goes on. This is starting to sound like a rant entry ...

... and so it did, 2 pages later. Yes it did turn out to be a rant entry (it just went on and on and on and then I fell asleep at the end), but no one is ever going to see that now. Trying to share a whole month’s (or more) worth of things at one in the morning is no good. And since my multiple attempts since then haven’t worked well, I’ve concluded that I won’t get anywhere with detail ... so I’m just going to keep it simple/to a minimum. Ask if highly curious (emphasis on highly), otherwise, don’t?

Holidays
So, the semester continues on. Honestly, I have fully wasted this week of break time that’s been given to me (uni study wise). I’m really annoyed at myself. What annoys me even more is the fact that it’s not the first time. It’s like a constant reminder that I’m not actively doing anything to change this bad habit of mine. Procrastinating, constant mindset that I still have time to complete what I need to do at a later date ... the problem of knowing but not doing. On the other hand, this week long break has given me the opportunity for some good me time (which I really needed) and the chance to catch up on some of the non-uni related things I needed to do (unfortunately, not all done). I guess I’m just in conflict on whether I used my break time wisely or not. Either way, I’m happy that there actually was a break.

Uni
University life, I could say, has been a major downfall for me. Work and study has been kept to a minimum not matter how hard I’ve tried. My laziness is pretty bad right now and my motivation is nearly all out the door. I’ve totally lost my work ethic. I used to think I was able to complete things on time and have somewhat of an orderly/organised feel about my life. Now, that’s just far from it. I wish I had as much willpower as I had during high school, or as much as I believed to have had back then. I’m really disappointed in myself about that. I feel that I’ve become a major disappointment; to myself especially, to family and to close friends (whether they know it or not). I feel that I have worsened as a person and that my behaviour and attitude should be given a big smack on the head (if it had one… or maybe someone should just literally smack me on the head). Too many times have I done something, thinking it was the proper thing to do but then upon reflecting upon the actions later, decided that it was probably the worst/most stupidest thing I could’ve done given the situation. I really hate myself for that. And the fact that it continually happens ... again… and again… and again… and you get the idea.

General life and everything else
(ie. all my random thoughts ... no paragraphs from this point onwards are logically linked)
Time is a bum.

Procrastination is bad. Not that I didn’t know that already.

My memory is getting progressively worse ...

Life is one huge rollercoaster ride experience or a puzzle board. (yes I know, very cliche, shush). There’s the bits where you get a big kick out of it (past few months: Church camps – EMP and BLT), there’s the bits where things just continually seem to be at a loss (down time in life) and there’s the bits that are normal (everything else I guess). Then you know, there’s the bits that don’t make sense but after you piece it all together, you get the bigger picture and voila! everything makes sense. There’s just so many things constantly nagging at me right now, most of the time, I just feel in a total loss of what to do next. I guess what’s important is that I’m gradually and slowly learning from it (I think).

Why do all big things happen at the end of the year? Grr ...

Things I’ve absorbed from EMP and BLT are constantly nagging me each day like someone constantly whacking you over the head with a pillow (or a book sometimes ... but that really hurts) or a kid that constantly tugs at your sleeve or the dust that is increasingly accumulating over my table or the ... ok I’ll stop.

Chocolate buffet in the city ... methinks I won’t be eating large amounts of chocolate for quite a while.

So many people are getting married lately, what’s with that?

Never third wheel unless needed ... otherwise avoid it whenever possible ...

Kids these days ... *no comment*

I want to watch some good horror/scary movies ...

In response to a news report about a guy handicapped after a night out with friends – why are people so agro and feel the need to waste themselves and vent it out on other human beings and potentially (in this case, literally) putting the lives of others at risk. What’s the point?

The song by Lifehouse, “Everything” and its accompanying drama is something that should be seen by anyone who hasn’t heard of the gospel. So silly of me, I kept wondering why I kept seeing it at various different places.

Rawr. I dislike the human behaviour of assumption and all its related things ... so bothersome. And fine, I’ll admit that I do it too, but just not in certain areas.

Radio has been on at work lately. So sick of the fact that radio stations choose to play the same songs over and over and over and over again when they have a choice of so many other songs to broadcast. On the other hand, a couple of weeks ago, the radio hosts had an interesting discussion between themselves and with the public on the topic of "Goals in Life". Typically, it started off with the usual studying hard out at school to enable yourself to enter a pro university so you can study the course you've planned to do since whenever, graduate from your studies after how many years, get your dream job, settle down, etcetc, and then all is good.
But is it really? Obviously, that’s how the discussion part came about. Most who called in were basically complaining - saying how their lives have unfortunately not worked out the way they’ve planned to; having a "defined" goal/path to success/life mapped out for themselves, but upon reaching that goal, they found that it wasn’t all that satisfying and felt that they were just stuck in the environment they landed themselves in from their area or studies. They felt unable to escape from it or progress to a further/higher stage.
In short (because it’s nearly 2am and I think I should be getting some sleep since uni is tomorrow and law lectures aren’t exactly the most interesting things I want to listen to), life isn’t all about ourselves and fulfilling our own desires, it’s about God. God created us so that we can serve Him and please Him. Reading "A Purpose Driven Life" once again has made me think about and explore such concepts in more depth (this topic was discussed in the 2nd chapter or something) on a different level than 5/6 years ago... I’m glad I dug this book out after all these years. It really sheds some light on a lot of things.

Sleep.

For those who read to the end, you’re crazy.

When it's the holidays ...

During dinner:

Sis: There is like, hardly any meat on those ribs. I bet if you take away all the bone, you'd only be left with this little section of meat ... Where do the ribs come from anyway?
Me: You know, that is a very good question ... one that I don't have an answer for ...
Sis: It's probably from a cow or something
Mum: ...
Me: Yeah I think so .. honey BBQ ribs
Mum: Er .. Honey BBQ -PORK- Ribs ...
Me: So yeah ... cow. Oh wait, pig ... haha >_>


...

ULTIMATE FAIL

x_x

Photo Time.

Thought I didn't archive properly before lol, nearly freaked, but realised the site was just slow at uploading everything.
Anyways.
Been a while since I've properly updated, as many people have pointed out. I promise I'll do it. If not, you can whack me on the head for totally wasting my time, because, I have a whole week of holidays and that provides me with more than sufficient time to do a proper update. The proper update should also come with a new layout which I've been telling myself to fix. Ha.

In the meantime, photo time! I was just going through and renaming my photo folders before and decided that I will actually post them up today as opposed to all those other times that I've wanted to. So, have fun looking at the photos? I guess you could also say that this is a super simplified version of what's been happening in my life since last decent update.

Foodwise (mostly) ...
LOL.

Home dinner varieties:

Mum's Tex Mex wrap with salad and pumpkin soup


Roast turkey with creamy potato bake and salad

Vonnie's 21st Party:

YUM! Now let's take a closer look ...


The awesomely cute cake.


Strawberry Cheesecake. Yum.


Red Bean Pancake =D


Wendy's Custard Fruit Flan (so pretty!)


Till this day, I'm still not too sure what it is. Mocha mousse of some sort.

Father's Day:

hehehe ...


Red bean pudding and other (not sure of english name)


Peach and strawberry pastry


hey, this looks familiar =P


"omgsh, it's so cute! who made it?" "Sara Lee made it" XD

The Salad Man (aka. my lunch today):

Yummy ..


rawrawr *makes a mess*


Sad Salad Man


Happy Salad Man


Salad Man with a moustache

Okok ... I'll stop haha. Need to go do some housework lol. I might continue with a bit more later.

And just to end off...

... silly China goods.

I lose.

This sucks.

I guess there really is a big difference between knowing about something and being told about the same thing.

Sigh =(

The Past Week

"Why do you seem shorter and shorter each time I see/stand next to you??" - Mum to me

The black olive, anchovies and garlic pizza:
H: The pizza is so spicy!!
S: There's no chilli in it though
M: Noooo .... olives ....
H: Well it's spicy *grabs water*
S: Ok I just ate a whole mouthful of garlic .... >_> That's the spicyness you're talking about
H: Niice ....
M: *makes an olive pile*

Dad: So, do you want to get a Wii?
Me: Wii?? o_O
Sis: WIIIIII !!!
Me: uuh ... probs not ...
Sis: WIIIII !!!
Mum: You guys decide ....
[couple of hours later]
Dad: So do you still want the Wii??
Me: You guys discuss it >___>
Sis: WIII !!!
[next day]
Mum: So do you think dad got the Wii?
Sis: WIIII !!!
Me: Yeah?
Mum: Yeah.
Me: Nice ...
Sis: WIIII !!!

So. We have a Wii now, lolololol. Bring on the games? Or lack of O_o;;

Update more later. Class.

Happy 21st Vonnie!

It's the end of the day, but just wanna wish another Happy 21st and dedicate a short entry to you =P!
I feel so blessed to have met such a great friend like you. Thank you for always being so caring and thoughtful (Grade 7 SH memories + bible study and the list goes on...), seemingly to always put others before you without a thought and lend a helping hand. You are such a great inspiration to others. In you, within you and around you is a world full of love, joy and happiness. Keep that beautiful smile on your face! and you have such a contagious laugh, lol. (that sounds a bit weird, but hope you get what I mean) It's amazing how you have such maturity yet have a "very young at heart" vibe with the little things that are able to bring about a happy laugh or smile to your face.
I will forever treasure all the memories that have passed by and hope that even more special memories be made in the future. I wish you all the best for the future years and with all your aspirations.
You're the best Vonnie! Love you tonnes! Happy Birthday! ^-^


EMP camp (uber delayed) and BLT+ update coming sometime soon. Hoping for a new layout sometime as well.

Cartoon Network

Just had the video player/recorder relinked back to the tv to be used. And to test it out, grabbed some random unlabeled tapes from the cupboard and shoved it in the player. And guess what was on ...

... Cartoon Network! =D

... with dubbed Sailormoon! hahahahahahahaha XD

omgsh, so so entertaining to watch again. I sat there for like half an hr just watching the eps. Don't know what season but it's the one with the "evil" red girl and blue guy.
Just reminds me of the reasons why I hate dubbed anime, no matter what the anime is. I mean like, to me, compared to some of the stuff that's come out since then, Sailormoon is pretty decent and like the good old original first time ish major hit type anime. Personally, the inner me likes Sailormoon to some extend, LOL *gets tomatoes chucked at me* But anyway yeah, back to the point, dubbed anime. Is very bad. No matter what anime. Names are weird, translated speech/sentences aren't the best (some of them sound so corny, like when the girl dies, the guys like "NOOOO!!!! DON'T LEAVE MEEEE!" roflmao), SOUNDS FX and MUSIC (either OP or ED) *key issue!!!* are different ... lol, dubbed anime just don't work. To be Sailormoon specific, all their voices either make themselves sound way older than they should be or make them sound like a bunch of stuck up little kids.

Aah XD
The good old days when cartoon network still existed and had dubbed Sailormoon. Makes me wanna watch Sailormoon all over again ...

..... Not?

Who knows =P